"TOO SICK"

I admire and appreciate Brooklyn College's extensive core curriculum. It gives the college a good reputation (take that, snobs!) I really admire it. But come the f**k on. Core Music!? This class is killing me. At this stage of my life, I'm taking crap that I don't need! Granted this is the only one this semester of its kind. The rest of my classes are pretty relevant to the line of work I wish to be in. It's just that listening to Renaissance era, Baroque era, chords, timbres. ENOUGH! I can't take it anymore! When does it end? I'm completely uninspired in a class like that. It reminds me of the beginning of my college days. I was bored to tears with a lot of the stuff I was taking and my GPA suffered. More than half the required stuff I hated. It wasn't until about 2 years ago where I became motivated and actually enjoyed learning. This is due to just taking classes I was interested in. I took a bunch of philosophy classes, TV/radio classes, production stuff, writing all genres from fiction to poems to news to sports and listening to professors that have done amazing things. It was (and still is) fun and I really wanted to do well. Imagine that. So a class like music reminds me why I found a lot of my earlier days here so mind numbing. Maybe the extensive core isn't the best idea. You need to take classes that excite you and captivate you.
My friend told me how he/she really wanted to do something in a certain field and take classes for it but a parent had advised him/her not to because the job market was scarce within that field. And I say F that. It's undergraduate school. Do what you want! If you change your mind, and want to do something more "reasonable" that's what graduate school is for. (A route that I'm not taking for now) Secondly, at least try! The sky's the limit, even in the midst of a recession. Ha I know parents look out for their children's best interest, but we can't crush dreams here. Especially since that friend is an extremely talented person. I'm impressed.

Whatever. I count the days all the time. I'm ready to move on. Even though the market is terrible. Another great friend of mine (talking about a lot of friends' stories) got let go from a job before she ever started. WTF! People need to get beat up sometimes.I'm not trying to be emo or negative or whatever the hell you want to call it, but the world is full of assholes. Chances are even your loved ones are assholes. Asshole lovers! Ha. I don't know. I just wanted to let people know how f**ked up adulthood can be. And to that friend, I want her to know that she'll bounce back, like always. She's got more balls than me, that's for sure.

I saw the movie American Beauty for the first time in years and what a great film that is. I'll admit, it's a bit over the top with its narration and the teenager storyline, but Kevin Spacey is so on his game in that one. So many new emotions were sparked in me. I really felt for the guy though he was acting completely irrational. From the surface, it's about a mid life crisis. But that would be selling the script very short. I'm not jumping the bandwagon because it's the 'cool movie' to like, similar to Eternal sunshine (which i loved way before it got popular btw!!!) I just realized after seeing it again at this point in my life, I got it this time around.

Knocked Up kicks ass though. I kid you not.

Songs!! With my Mets gone and my trips to Shea closed until April, I've been devoting plenty of time in writing. It's always there. Sometimes the ideas aren't. Not the case this time. Right now, I'm writing this song called "Sick For Thanksgiving Again" which is going to be great. I had this mild cold last Thanksgiving and I realized it had been a trend for the last few years that I had some sort of bug during the holiday so I thought I can use that idea. But of course it won't be about sneezing. Gonna artsy it up and relate it to someone who's thankful for the people in his life but lets negative feelings get in the way of his celebration. Woo! Chorus' have been easy to write. Verses are much harder though, as always.

So far I have 3 songs done. Another 3 are halfway done. So there you go with that. The speed is picking up.

Oh and f**k the Phillies. You know what, fuck the * censors. In the words of this guy that sat next to me at Shea on a July game, "FUCK DA PHILLIES!".