Possible Title: "Motionless"

Hey everyone.
I've had a few days away from the writing process but my mind has been on it a lot. Thinking about different things I'd like to discuss and incorporate with this project.I have a list of topics/titles and I've spent some time trying to add a few and I believe that I have done just that.

Motionless was a title I used for a 15 page short story I wrote for my fiction writing class this past semester. Most of the feedback was positive with a few suggestions of tweaking. Essentially, it was about a man in his late twenties who is in a major funk. He realizes he's living a tedious life with absolutely no excitement. He became complacent over the years and ended up in a redundant mess. He constantly argues with his girlfriend he lives with. He has a job that does not fulfill nor expand his mind. He's not challenged there. He does things with his friends during his off time that he doesn't even truly enjoy. Yet, he does nothing about it. He just replays it and replays it. He begins to live on auto pilot, until one moment, he meets an old crush from childhood. It was nothing meaningful in terms of their connection. They just talk for about 3 minutes and their friends tease him and she says goodbye. It was this moment of humility where he FINALLY becomes impulsive. He decides to leave the dance club he was in, get in his car, and without packing anything, without telling anyone, go to an isolated town somewhere in the north east, and stay there for a while. Meet new people. Find solice and start a new life. Most of this climax is internal so physically, nothing is really happening. But these thoughts excite him like he hasn't been excited in a very long time. He gets some money at the bank. As he's driving to his destination, more thoughts enter his head. He listens to a voice mail of his girlfriend, breaks down and cries, and turns around to go back to his mundane life. Now, it's never really clear what it is that alters his once spontaneous decision, and that's what I loved about this story the most. It could have been the guilt he felt when hearing his lover's voice. But it could have been that he was afraid of leaving everything because he wouldn't succeed. Perhaps he made excuses for him to stay. OR he realized that he may have taken everything he had for granted. We don't know how it plays out. Maybe this character found happiness and acceptance when he turned around. He could also have lived and died a life that never lit up any sparks. Lots of people do unfortunately. It's another great tragedy. And we don't know (along with the protagonist) how that decision to leave would've played out...It could have been the best or worst thing he's ever done. When writing stories, we're expected to write a resolution at the end of the piece, but in life, there often ISN'T a resolution. Or the resolution changes many times. Or continues. It's never just cut and dry. I love the story format. I think it works. But in this one, I wanted it to imitate life as much as possible. And in life, only death is the true resolution. And this man's journey isn't concluded. I hope he would find happiness, whether that means with his current situation or a new one. Deep down inside, it indeed is about a man that should've taken that drive all the way north. He needed a drastic move like that to change his life, because he won't make those changes individually in his current setting. At least that was my perception of the character. The beauty is that I wanted EVERYONE to make their own conclusion on this character. But he just stands still. He's motionless...
Now all that I just said, I want to form in song/poetic form. How do I take 15 pages of info and form it into that will be a tall order.

My break has been very relaxing and I'm enjoying myself. I need baseball in my life. And I'm beginning to feel those January blues. This month and especially February are my least favorite months. But time flies. I want to talk about self confidence in my next blog and having the guts to not worry about what people say. Because, I'd say in about four days, there have been 3 lines people have told me, that have gotten under my skin and upset me. Now I'm not fragile. But it was all guided towards a specific topic that has always been sensitive subject to myself. So I'll discuss that in the coming posts. Oh, also... a very awesome person commented on a previous post, saying that rainy days creates nostalgic feelings and I want to touch on that. I'm almost done with the different titles and ideas. I'm going to take all these ideas and form songs for each individual...one. I need 13 but I'll keep writing here regardless. I'm very pleased with how it's all unfolding so I'm not going to stop.

Even my crazy/active brain is slowing down. So until then, goodnight all. If anyone has read all of this, from top to bottom, here's a message for you:
I LOVE YOU!!!