I don't know about you, but I find it interesting how close we start to become to people, not just girlfriends, boyfriends, or lovers, but friends, family, etc. It's amazing how close we are to these certain people at particular times in our lives. Then a turning point comes. Sometimes it's for a reason. Sometimes there is no reason and is very anti-climactic. The phrase 'ghost from the past' comes to mind. I could think of a time when I was so close to certain people and I'd consider them great friends. I had this perception in regards to time and how I thought I'd know this person fairly well forever. But a couple of years later, I rarely talk to them. It's really sad. It's not all this person's fault. Things change, people move. It's not all my fault. Priorities change. Just because it's nobody's fault doesn't mean it's not a tad bit underwhelming. I don't know these people anymore. It's unreal because I once did. Very well too. But people move, and sometimes you feel left behind. And I think we start thinking about this when we run into someone unexpectedly and start having small talk. I reflect on this notion often. It's often been what drives me to write in the first place. Time. And people that were left behind at certain 'phases' of our lives. Will the people I care about so very much still be around in about 5 years? How about 10? And if not, will there be new people to 'replace' those roles? Will these people better or worse? Do I even want these people to exit my life?
It's all very sad, but it happens. The detachment of friends/lovers that have greatly influenced your life so much. Maybe they even left a mark. Everyone wants to be remembered in a positive light. Will you have made a mark in their lives where they'll think about you when they hear a song, or watch a movie? Lots of depressing questions. Some people are able to move on faster than others. I admit, I was very poor at this act, but have improved greatly in recent years. I've begun to understand this aspect of life. It's basic, but sometimes difficult to grasp. It's still sad that I even HAVE TO discipline myself to understand these notions. I wish we could always hold on to an aspect of closeness with people. It's almost impossible to do with relationships. And understandibly so. But what does that say to us? Can we NOT handle staying friends with people we once slept with, or kissed, or shared intimate secrets with? A different way to word it, is the human brain incapable of staying in touch with people who remind them of a certain time they are trying to break free from? Probably not.
That's why there are so many awkward moments in bumping into these ghost from the past.
So the REVOLVING DOORS sort of symbolize the rapid transition of people coming and going. That's what I'd like this song to represent. Let these DOORS be a metaphor to the arrival and absenses of close friends/lovers at such a steady pace, that it's hard for the brain to distinguish the differences.
And finally, If I'm close to you now, will I be in even a few weeks? It's not a happy thing to ponder, but necessary.
Whew...That's felt like the deepest one yet. Hope you enjoyed it. My brain is fried now.
In other news, David Bheckham is very rich. He will make 1 million dollars a week for playing a sport that is extremely unpopular in the States. I'll be lucky if I make 100 dollars a week.
See you guys soon.
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